My First Experience of Feminine Embodiment Coaching.
When I received my first Feminine Embodiment Coaching, I really didn’t know what to expect. I was intrigued by the idea that I could release old unresolved issues from my system by focusing on my body and allowing my body to lead.
The Feminine Embodiment Coaching session began with a deeply relaxing exercise to drop into my body. By the end of this process I felt unbelievably relaxed and calm. I felt connected and truly safe in my body. It was a weird sensation. I hadn’t realised how unsafe I had felt and how all up in my head I’d been.
Then the Feminine Embodiment Coach asked me about a recent issue. I had come expecting to target my past, and the hurt I had suffered many years ago. Instead, we discussed this recent issue and how I wanted to feel differently about it by the end of the session.
The Feminine Embodiment Coach guided me to keep the recent issue fresh and encouraged me to feel, sense or see what I was experiencing in my body and observe how my body responded to this recent issue.
My body was tingling with feelings and sensations! I could feel all of the little knots, all the constriction in my muscles, all the tension this particular recent issue had caused in my body. Amazing!
These feelings and sensations were not tied to any specific flashbacks or memories. Instead, I saw a word picture, an image in my mind’s eye, to help me unpack what I was experiencing.
It started with a castle. I had tentatively let down the drawbridge but I was cautious to enter. What if it was a trap? What if there was something lurking inside?
The Feminine Embodiment Coach kept encouraging me to return to the feelings and sensations, dropping back into my body. I drew my attention to the tension in my body and it shifted, dissolved, drawing my attention into deeper pain, older wounds.
My body felt these shifts, and wanted to move. I yawned and coughed, opening my throat, my fingers closing into a fist to express all the trapped anger and frustration. Tears rolled down my face.
My body knew exactly what to do. All I had to do was listen to my body and allow it to make any movements or sounds it needed to explore these unresolved little knots of tension. I just had to feel it to welcome all the feelings and sensations. I resisted the urge to push it down and hide from the pain.
The Feminine Embodiment Coach invited me to explore the next layer of feeling...and the next layer, and the next. I could feel all the pain and suffering I'd experienced many years ago.
Only, this time I didn't need to relive it or go back through it in my mind. I just needed to feel it and allow my body to move or give sound to it. The layers began to dissolve. The feelings and sensations kept shifting, changing, as if my body knew exactly what to do.
I grew more confident and in my mind's eye I saw my castle with its drawbridge down, only now I was willing to enter through the great arched castle entrance. To my surprise I didn’t enter a castle at all, but a fortress. I entered into an inner courtyard protected by the great stone walls.
This image opened more feelings and sensations in my body. This time it felt like an opening, an expansion into some part of me that had felt closed and scared. My body was alive with a tingling rush of sensations. Riding these tingles, the Feminine Embodiment Coach encouraged me to expand my capacity to feel this too, to welcome this in too.
By the end of my first Feminine Embodiment Coaching session, I imagined myself standing with my arms stretched up, legs apart greeting the earth and the expanse of blue sky. The fortress walls had receded, expanding my inner courtyard to an enormous stadium sized space.
I felt free! Liberated! Protected by the great walls surrounding me, giving me clear boundaries without cramping my style.
But that was just my first Feminine Embodiment Coaching session. Each session is different. A Feminine Embodiment Coaching session might be all feelings and sensations in your body. Or it might be all memories and flashbacks. Or it might be a mixture all of these things in different sessions.
None of what arises needs to make any sense. It doesn't need to be logical and we don't need to analyse our felt senses. It's simply following the wisdom of the body as it arises.
What's important is that you just observe without a need to “do” anything about these feelings or sensations. You just acknowledge how you feel.
All of it is deeply healing. It feels like coming home to your body’s inner knowing you always knew you had!
